Saturday, December 13, 2014

final exam and the consequences

those days when i was still on the first desk , top left corner of the biology lab , cut the spinach stem and made it into two strips and one immersed into the distilled water and the other one into sucrose solution , still flashing in my eyes .  it was Biology Practical Test . just for boarding school for the final exam . it was the starting point of the test that define where are you next year and who are you for the next 20 years . exaggeration ? no , it's true , for me .

only we knew how our condition while taking the exam . each and everyone left their soulmate alone ; just like me start leaving my only sister alone at home , making books their new soulmates . things that they chased the most . just for a month for sure . i had nothing to leave because im bare-handed there.  thanks i had enjoyable crazy friends to spend time with me to sing at late midnight when it was getting more and more silent , when heads were getting more and more towards the book and sometimes too down that arm became a perfect pillow :3

started by Biology Practical Test , ended by Biology Paper 2 . that moment when teacher said that the time's up , our minds's completely went super crazy ; i knew i could see it on their faces , not mentioning what in earth of answer that we put on the paper , it's all over ! but the fact that we had 3 weeks to stay slightly dumped us down to earth . but again , October ,the period of a month of pressure . the only month the pages of the book were all skimmed through . procrastination at its best . but never mind , my other bros did the same too . peer pressure at its best .

no one will push you to the ultimate goals you capable to achieve unless you and yourself . I didn't remember pushing myself rather than countless hour being in front of those books ; trying to read and remember every single things that have been printed and written on ; that now are messily on the floor in my full blue room if it has theme . buuuuut in the end even i didn't get what i really wanted all over this overwhelming year , at least im still in the first class next year . Alhamdulillah :)

nervous ? yeah for sure . to sit and share the same fan in the same room with those geniuses is quite challenging . im not knowing that if i can change my style of learning from the daydreaming type towards more curious about what im currently learning ; just like my friend did ; ask ask and ask without realizing that me at the back , counting how many friends of mine who are left-handed when it's a chemistry class :o can't find any relation there . what a waste . aannnd he's first in the class for this final bruhhh . one step behind .

the pressure that have been put on me as the newcomer this year is just incomprehensible . trying to adapt with the situation . unusual culture and tradition . the tradition is not good in whatever way you take into account but the word tradition itself describe how strong it is and one  ,who want to change it must be much more stronger to change it . physically and mentally . but nevermind , i've gone through it . it's gonna be tough for burung 1516.

looking forward to write a book entitled 'Escape Plan'
my heart told me to do so . idk why

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